I’ll tell you why..
It all started when basyir broke-up with farah and supposedly because of afiq indirectly. I supported basyir as he’s the longest best friend I know. Naturally, I got angry at afiq too. Nevertheless, I still wanted to hear his side of the story. But instead of coming up to us and coming clean, he stayed away. Not forgetting farah kept insisting in our faces that none of us know afiq as well as she did. Hah.
Eventually when we actually met after so long, I was instead blamed for not approaching afiq first & liyana and me were supposedly not in a position to question them because we were not around when it happened. Whut?! So, just because I took time off from hanging out to focus in school, makes me the indirect cause of it all? Righteous.
Consequently, led by syima, the group still asked afiq & farah to hang out. But we either get ignored, insulted or rejected. Basyir & me were still not comfortable to hang out with them. For Liyana, she tried unsuccessfully to contact farah & afiq individually to have a good talk.
Then this happened.
Syima was to have a spa session with farah. Afiq was gonna tag along. Syima invited Basyir to come along too. Mon night, Basyir, still feeling slightly uneasy, called Liyana & me up personally wanting us to come. Naturally we said yes. Oh and Basyir said syima wants us to come along too…
Tues night, while having dinner, Liyana & me had a discussion. We felt that if Basyir is still truly feeling uncomfortable when Afiq & Farah is around, we shouldn’t force it on him. He needs time to heal and its uncomfortable for friendship-sake at the same time. But we didn’t want to speak on his behalf, so Liyana gave him a call to discuss. After arriving to an understanding between the 3 of us that Basyir was not too keen either, we replied in the vip whatsapp group on how we felt. Syima took what we said and we moved on. Or so we thought. I texted basyir that night to no reply.
Weds morning, I texted basyir again to no reply. When I met Liyana after class, she too texted basyir earlier to no reply. At night, both of us texted him again to no reply. We were both getting worried so Liyana decided to give him a call to no answer too. I casually scrolled through fb and that’s when we found out that everyone were together for dinner. Not from basyir. Or syima. It was via goddamn fb.
When we were indirectly blamed for the break-up by not being there, we made a resolution to always be there by our friends as we do not want to see anything like that happen again. Now when we are actually here, getting involved, we were purposely left out?
We decided to skip the dinner together with basyir for basyir’s sake. In the end, he joined the dinner? We were ignored by him? No one had the initiative to tell us?
We actually got worried for basyir when he wasn’t replying us. The night before, basyir said he was gonna hang out with sher. And we told him that we wanna meet him after sher if he’s up for it. We were close to calling sher up. But guess not.
The first person who contacted us after liyana’s msg on whatsapp, was neither basyir or syima. It was afiq. The guy who is not involved is to be the first to get involved. Then syima called.
When we did not answer syima’s call, she texted us saying it means a lot that we did not answer & its up to us to make the effort now. Really? When the whole break-up incident happened, I didn’t see afiq make any effort to reconnect but u still contacted him every now and then. Why the double standards man.
When Liyana answered Syima’s call, they had an argument and when the question of why basyir did not reply/call, syima said he malas.. How do u think we felt? Practically everything we’ve done is to have basyir in mind so that he’ll be comfortable and so that he can move on, but all we got was basyir malas? Damn.
My girlfriend cried a lot yesterday. She cried from somerset to woodlands. She cried more after talking to syima on the phone. She’s hurt because she has really grown into the friendship and cares for every single one of them. And she has truly made the effort to change for the better so as not to offend people easily, syima especially.
As for me.. I just don’t know what to say. We’ve been friends for a very long time. You can’t even be honest with me? Ok.
Update: Friday afternoon. Syima decided to whatsapp us saying she has only 1 question to ask: what does our friendship mean to us? Why don’t you tell me, Syima. Liyana and me made our intentions clear with no hidden agenda about the meet-up. It was all supposed for Basyir’s sake.
BUT WE WERE STILL FREAKING KEPT IN THE DARK. Its as if we are the bad guys? The more i think about it, the more I get confused, upset. And everyone jolly well knows I do not get upset easily.
I am not staying away. I just had enough for now. I still have school work to do on top of all this drama.
Glad I have this blog to put out my rants.
If you really want to talk, you know where to find me. Or if you prefer to just explain, you can comment on this post.
